me and my toyshi

We never really had the best relationship.

Maybe it is because we have a hard time communicating. I am always trying my best to understand him. And i always blame his incessant desire to annoy me by being stubborn and providing me with endless whims, as well as the constant need for that extra care.

I try to go the extra mile by learning, almost embodying, what he is really made of... what ticks & tickles him. I even went as far as sacrificing the little time to myself just to be with him.

There are times that I want to smack him hard, full of frustration yet again because of the misunderstanding that we had had.

And the time he gave up on me, leaving me with this confused feeling, not knowing what went wrong, driving me to go to all ends just to bring him back. To make him whole again.

As always, I am at the losing end.

Rather... I am the first to succumb to him. To go further down the road just because I realized how much he means to me... and how much I needed him. to make things right for him, even with an extra cost.

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... we never really had the best relationship, my laptop and i...

case no. 1. the creation

and so here i am. i have always wanted this. i have always contemplated on this. and now i can't resist the urge anymore.

i resolve to create this to satisfy my craving to write. to voice out whatever is boggling me. to express my innermost thoughts. and sometimes, just the creative things taking form in the recesses of my mind.

and for lack of anything better to do.

i take that back. not just because i dont have anything else to do.

maybe... i've created this to put a stop in the conversations going on in my head.