lips of an angel

It’s kinda hard to talk right now.
I gotta whisper cause I can’t be too loud.
Well, my girl’s in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words make me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

-- lips of an angel


It was a mistake, I know.

A mistake that I will never forget.

A mistake I do not regret, though…

Do not regret now… but what about in the future, when it is already too late?
(footnote from the girl who's riding the wrong bus)

honesty

it's funny how life, liking, and love works, and behaves.

he loves me, i know i love him.

but "i know" is different from i feel.

i used to love him... he still likes me... as a friend, i guess.

i should be happy, but i think i wanted more.

because maybe... just maybe, i still love him.

now, that is also different from knowing i love the other him.

we used to love each other, but i don't think i ever really loved him.

he still likes me, even if he's in love with somebody else.

he's a friend, and he said he likes me.

maybe, he's even falling in love already.

this is weird, because no matter how i try not to think about him, about all these, his face and his name always comes up. no matter how hard i try to push it away, it always comes back to this...

... it's always been him.


maybe not wholly... but in some parts... some major parts... some major parts i just can't ignore.

and i know everything's a bitch... and that everything will catch up with me some time in the future...

but i can't worry too much about what is still unseen.

for now, i'm worried with this honesty.

i'm worried about what it will do to me...


* from the same girl who always found herself at square one everytime she felt like she's already moved on...

i miss us...

i was looking through some old pics, and i came across this...

i can't spend as much time with them now as i would like to. different geography, different schedules, different lifestyles. rarely do we get to hang out, catch up, and have fun. i miss these girls, and i miss bonding with them.

its been more than 14 years now, and i still don't believe in what Mo said, that you rarely get to keep friendships from highschool. you will eventually lose in touch with the people you considered your best friends in highschool, and friendships from way back just wont sustain. i disagree with him, and i wanted to prove him wrong.

this is as good as it gets. this is the real thing. we have known each other more than our lives now, and though we don't see each other as much as we used to, i know in our hearts that the caring, and the love didn't grow any less over the years. with age, comes the knowledge and understanding that we don't need to constantly keep in touch to know that anytime one would need the other, no time zone nor location can be that wide a hindrance just to give comfort. with age, comes the maturity to know that labels such as "best friends" are just but labels. the real friendship is what's inside, it may be unspoken, but it is felt.

i am positive that we are going to spend more years together. we will always be there for each other come what may. wherever life will take us, i know that we will always go back home to each other...

here's to the kyutties who knew me then, now, and for always...