together again

ok, so we’re back on track. Forgive, forget, and move on. past is past. there is always the present and the future.

and tomorrow is definitely something to look forward to!

crash and burn

it was that easy to take away my natural high. it was that easy to make me cry. one message was all it took.

it really hurts to know that you can be deceiving. i hate you for your white lies. i've asked you not to do that to me for there will come a time that i will no longer believe. how dare you put me on a high then push me down just like that.

i fell too fast. i crashed even faster. i've been burned and i don't know how to recover.

how can we get over this? i'm down but i still want to be there...i've been hurt and i want to get over the pain...

making up

you really knew how to make it up to me...

thank you for giving me a natural high :)

togetherness

it’s been 18 days. 4 consecutive days. overnight. looking forward to another day.

intimacy. petty quarrels. making up. the sweetest thing.

LSS – you give me something.

i was meant to tread the water, but now I’ve gotten in too deep
for every piece of me that wants you, another piece backs away
you give me something, that makes me scared alright
this could be nothing, but I’m willing to give it a try
please give me something
because someday, I might know my heart…

i heard...

...

it's really none of my business, but i'm honestly curious... waiting for the details.

i'm numb. less than what you have felt then, i guess. but something struck deep within. regret? torn. wishing? not. hoping? nah...

sad? restless...

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i'm also sad to hear what happened between my cousin and his girlfriend. i've given him enough warning, but i've encouraged him to hold on. i've been through that, and i know how it feels. but things happen. and as i've learned, some things are just not meant to be...

it's time to wallow... and soon, he'll learn that there will be a time to move on...

case no. 3. underneath it all

you’ve been very short-tempered with me lately. is it me? or am i blaming myself again for something that i shouldn’t be sorry for?

this is me. take me for what i am. i make drama out of everything. i make my own misery. and i can’t help it.

well, i can, really. but i don’t try very hard. because i’m as stubborn as can be.

so please, just bear with me. the more you give me a frown, or the more you raise your voice at me, the more drama i will create. because i can never take it when you do those things at me. and you very well know that.

i may seem to be a willing victim. i may seem to just take everything. but i hurt deep inside. and i don’t want to reach the point where i’ll just give up…

don’t try to win me with your smile. don’t try to melt me with your hug…

do try to listen to me. do try to understand me and please, make an effort to appease me.

this is me. take me as is. love me despite of it. underneath it all…

turning over a new month...

you changed my life…

… in a moment.

“bebe ko? bebe ko… bebe kooo….”

getting picked up from work, cooking together, sleeping together, visiting parents, watching a romantic movie, shopping together (even if it meant a jeepney ride, walking through a thick crowd, smelly streets, and a drizzle), eating together (more like, being fed!), bonding with friends, being interrogated, cuddling, having a fight, making up, a kiss goodbye…

OFFICIALly missing you…